I am so so so so so so so sooooooooooo sorry. i m such a terrible friend….. u might never trust me anymore, u deserve friends who are  more honest and less selfish than me. u deserve friends who are much better than me……………..

The train station coordinator’s words slapped me hard in my face: you’re responsible for your own ticket.

yeah i m responsible for my own doings. every single thing u do, is gonna be what u get next, they’re not gonna escape. stop taking things for granted.

I still hadnt changed, my old habits still stuck deeply in me.

Very disappointed with myself.

repent and change needed.

i am at sheffield, how time flies :) and i m currently enjoying my life, very much:) taken lotsa photos, but torn between whether i shud post it in fb or mayb flikr or not.

life is wonderful. I am trying a few new things out, made a few breakthroughs( in fact many considering the time frame), i managed to push myself beyond my own boundaries and beyond what I’ve never thought i cud possibly do, and been constantly pushing myself trying out challenging but rewarding things. I think I am in love with my course & my life so far. I feel architecture can be so rewarding & satisfying, designing is a challenge, but it’s so much more in return when u’re looking at what u achieved :) by doing architecture i can do so much more than just designing buildings! archi is about much more coz it leads u to understand the world, the nation, the culture, art, practicality etc etc. it makes me feel like, yes i am finally doin something REAL in this life. in the current project i m even gonna make a video, which is VERY FASCINATING.  i was pretty worried about my course, but it turns out kinda fine for me so far, i like the freedom  of expressing ourselves, not asked or pressured in doin something too nice or just not my style, or the education system of spoon feeding and the lecturer-is-the-king kind of dictator teaching method. it makes learning so much fun n meaningful when u can actually open up n not obeying every single thing that the lecturer says :)

thats all from me today. i’ve had an exciting journey in the uk :) well, life is getting busier with more n more engagements in societies, n heavier workloads in studies as we’re moving from group to individual work now. weather is killing me softly though. i did hav family sick for one or two times thanks to seesern’s profile pic which triggered my emoness.

clubbing, luggage lost when i reached for the first few days, stammered in front of like 40 coursemates while sharing thoughts, joined: dance soc ( contemporary dance n street jazz :P) , cook everyday! , travelling alone down to birm and missted the FREAKING TRAIN! , birmingham+london+manchester DOWN, next glasgow in mid nov for field trip, done lotsa sketches which are kinda cool for my own standard, designing posters for the article 25 (a society)…… and the list goes on while life goes on! :)

i m grateful of the opportunity i have to be here and doin what i am doin… :)

live life to the fullest, pals! :)

live life like noone else. listen to those chords in ur hearts. strum it out loud. not in tune with others’?
ah, i dun give a damn, just make sure the chords of mine are in tune:)

meanwhile, i’m still in the journey of self-searching.

now, what’s life to YOU? ;)

now, get back to reality! no pain no gain!

虽然疲乏，还是追赶…

exams are stressing me out. this is no ordinary exams, this exam is gonna determine which uni i;ll be attending in the next 3 or even 6 years. that is why, i feel so pressured. it might sound nothing to u, but it;s everything to me now. i cant afford to make mistakes and miss the conditions… i noe if the worse scenario happens,i will never forgive myself…

he didn’t know how much those things meant to me…always being so supportive and patient to me…i definitely did not cast any spells to let these happened. and i don’t understand what magnetic field i have to keep u ’round.  i can’t thank you and love u enough=’) ♥♥

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a closing for yesterday. shall really concentrate in hitting those As down. i wanna fly. :)

one of my friends told me, he’s kinda lost, he’s unsure of the purpose of his life, he does not have an aim.

yeah, i cudnt agree more, a lifetime aim is a MUST for everyone. A life without a major aim is a pointless journey. Many people treats whatever that happens to them at the moment as their aims. But if you think twice, this type of people wouldn’t make significance changes to his or others’ lives. They are led by fate, when they can actually control their own fate instead. oh yes, of course things wouldn’t always just follow your way, it’s made up of __% of luck + __% of ur hardwork + __% of other elements, perhaps..

When you’re in primary school and secondary school, you’ll always hav an aim— atleast, do well in exam or co-curicullum. years after years. we’ve never thought of what we actually wanted the most. your aim as a student, is actually just your responsibility, plus your parents and teachers’ expectation. Now you’ve left the school bench, it’s time to ponder about YOU and YOUR LIFE, in YOUR OWN WAY. it’s not just about a job, a family, a person, love, or an obsession. it’s about something bigger, an impact to a society, an influence that can bring together hearts and souls. while you can dream, dream bigger, why not??? dream is the first step of everything, determination follows, actions realise it.

I always believe that it’s the spices which alter the taste, not the main ingredients.

Say there’s 50 students scoring straight A+. What makes a person outstanding? Co-curriculum.

You have a stable job. You have a perfect family. You have materials possessions and Money. but when you turn into ashes, they’re nothing.  Why don’t contribute a lil more, ignite a few more hopes in the world, and that legacy which you’ve passed on worth much more than anything you USED TO own.

Architecture is the path that I will take. Sometimes, i found that it contradicts with my principle. The luxurious buildings are being built in Dhubai, meanwhile in India, some don’t have a home. Constructions are going on nonstop at so many places despite the gradually alarming side effects of globalisation on the environment. When i am doing homework, i used up piles of test pads, especially for math; and the waste products of mock-up models, papers etc etc. for art sometimes can be real intimidating. while somewhere deep in my heart, a sound was yelllingggggggggg!—COME ON, SAVE THE EARTH, RECYCLE whenever you can!

why am i talking about all these? well, a lil off topic but not so. what i am trying to say is,

somehow i do believe, we’re all born with some things people don’t have. EACH and EVERY human has different thoughts, feelings, perceptions and strengths. In secondary school, the results of personality tests and career tests that i did were mostly inclined towards social first, then art. But social seemed to be a lil too boring for the ambitious me XP u noe, like counsellor!? =.= charity(no income, how to makan? ) lol, that was my mindset back then. and i was biased, as i faced many problems with dealing with people especially during form five, which made me stand strongly against having jobs in the social field. but as i grow, I can’t deny that this side of me was found so naturally in me. Some people say, that’s your calling.

So, as a chef, I would like to design my very own dish, with

the main ingredient as architecture; spices as WHATEVER GREEN IN COLOUR :D and i hope i can keep half of my the portion to those who need the food and simply can’t afford. :) (need a translation? it simply means, green architecture plus involving in charity)

that’s my lifetime aim, or rather principle. how about yours? :) from time to time, STOP, and think about it. reset your aim, adjust your path, then WORK ON IT! before you walk too far off the tangent! =) YOU, CAN MAKE A DIFFERENCE.

p/s: well, saying it is much easier than doing it. I AM NOT DOIN ARCHI YET I AM STIL TUCK IN A-LEVEL OMG IMMA  A-LVL DEGREE HOLDER.

My heart sank. I knew about the explosion from tv this morning. these disasters, earthquake, tsunami and then nuclear plant leakage that hit Japan have been devastating. although I am far away from the unfortunate nation, I felt surges of pain everytime i see the pictures n news of the disasters, and knowing that so many people are suffering from it.

probably bcoz it’s japan. I’ve been there for a homestay when i was in f4. I liked that country very much, of their culture, attitude, and as a nation which is fore-front in technology. I have relatives from japan too. my uncle’s wife is from japan. my uncle, aunt, and 2 of my cousins were in tokyo when earthquake hit. my aunt’s hometown is in sendai, one of the badly struck regions by the tsunami. apparently, some of my aunt’s relatives stil cant be contacted. although i have not met them, but somehow, i share their worry and pain of probability in losing them, and  the grief of losing their beloved homes, friends, relatives and their loved ones….

sometimes u feel helpless… sometimes u do not know what u can do for the ppl in the other side of the world.

but something i m quite certain with, is that japan will get over this with dignity, and rises stronger than ever.