MJ—-the GOD XD

went to watch THIS IS IT.

MJ U ROCK TO THE MAX MAX MAX MAX MAX MMMMMAAAAXXXXXXXX

hes such a talented being.

he has the natural rhythm that noone could ever mimic. not just that. his soul is filled with emotions and feelings, which are expressed by his magnetic voice and his dance steps and gestures. he can express these feelings so well. he does what he feels like, and so he shines. hey it doesn’t stop just here hes far from just a skillful performer. he has tones of great thoughts pent up in his mind. such as his concern towards the earth and the planets. he never failed to convey this message each time when he had a chance to do so. his magnetic voice and sincerity made him influential,  and yeah i am one of those who are influenced by him. love is what matters most to him and this he wants to share with his audiences. hes like…. a gift to the world. to make the world a better place, to bring the awareness of people to heal the world, to the world of entertainment, to the sake of welfare, to the sake of…. me? XD

‘If you wanna make the world a better place, take a look at yourself and make a change.‘ -Man in the Mirror, Michael Jackson-

this is one of my favourite phrase.  it has been my motto ever since i knew this lyric. and YES. it will still be my motto for the rest of my life. =D  and people out there!! yes you. think about this phrase. YOU can contribute to the world.

p.s: KEEP the present tense. he still lives in our heart

永恒？

世上没有东西是永恒的吧。。时间和距离会把它冲淡。。。。。

该若无其事？还是面对现实？

我不敢爱不敢恨。。 不敢放下畏惧变化。。害怕后悔，所以自私。唉。

我在逞强吗？

会永恒吗？好天真。。=（

freaked out

I FREAKING HATE COCKROACHES. really. i seldom got freaked out by things but cockroaches seriously pissed me off evertime i met one. i duno wats wrong with them and wats wrong with me. argh. i just cant stand them!!!!

we cleaned our house(hostel) this morning. and we sealed the cockroach hole with naphthalene balls. BUT, i still saw one juznow. sometimes i feel like killing them.  i held that thought back coz i guess if i really kill one i will be haunted by nightmares of cockroaches every night.  fyi i dun even kill mosquitoes.

seeing our house is so clean now, i was hoping for a cockroaches free nite. really. but sigh. STILLLL. i hate cockroaches. cant u just gimme a nite rest ???

-the frustrated zhini-

moodless for ethics

its time to blog

its been quite some time since my previous entry. haven’t had the urge to blog lately. maybe too busy with other things, no space in my brain is left for blogging. >.< summore dis blog is like deserted. no audience. no fun la…….DYING. pitiful.

life lately: study and arts. final is coming, gotta start studying soon. SOON. i hope. endless arts project as usual.

organised a band form gathering for october babies bday celebration. majority made it. hapeeee:)  money matter more hapeeee. was eating the whole nite. 7 to 11. the food in shea shin’s restaurant was really great. but bro, we were damn full at that time lo. anyway thanks to my form buddies:)

lately. this long lost feeling comes back to me. its the solitary. its not the emo kind of solitary, i am not writing an emo post. perhaps its bcoz i have more time to myself in my life now compared to last time. one solid example is my house. it  used to be so noisy with my siblings around, now its empty, anyway i m not staying at home as well. hostel is never the same as home. though i have 2 housemates in hostel. all of us always busy in doing our own things though we spend the time together under the same roof. the people who i used to rely on are all not around me anymore. somehow i gotta do all the things by myself. now i realise how dependent i was. i feel like i am single, the feeling which i have not felt since some time ago. mayb 2 years? XD not that i am dumbed or something ( this really does not imply to sumtng else >.<). but why i feel like i m single is that i gotta be more independent now.

done with that. other than that i am still the clumsy me. >.< stil do lotsa clumsy stuff like left my key in classroom so got no key to open the locker. left my house key in hostel, waited for like 2 pm to 10 pm till my sis rescued me all the way from melaka.  the latest clumsy event was that i left my lunch box in the toilet( i think ) at intec after washing it. i hope tmr it will still be there. cant lose it la

ciaoz ciaoz ciaoz

body clock ticking

BODY CLOCK TICKING

Tick Tock ….the breasts are chiming.
Body clock is ticking.
To have a child or not?  Pack more hours in the day.  Pack, pack. Head is busy with lists.
Will have to use walk in wardrobe room as nursery, but then where shall I put all my clothes??
Lists, more lists in my head.  Nightmare of lists. Mortgage, school fees, infuriating boss, five kilos to lose before Christmas, need suit for overseas meeting, visit mother in law more often, career ladder, how to be a good wife….need prada belt, designer saucepans, save for a holiday at the Four Seasons In Bali.  How to have a baby??
Turn forty soon.
Feel tired and empty.  Feel most alive when there is a deadline because then I cannot think of choices.  Who am I, what am I, where am I????
My life is hanging by a thread.

by. ketna patel

exactly. sometimes. (I MEAN THOSE HIGHLIGHTED PARTS ESPECIALLY. NOT ABOUT TURNING 40 HAVING BABY. DUH. NG SHEA SHIN HOPE U C THIS =P)

ending and starting

phewww…. mask project finally OVER. =) finally dun have to face masks anymore. =) been doin it for a few months. but the next project has started.  another project with heavy workload. A1 size!!!  summore final exam is comin up. submission day is around one week before the exam, during the study break. >.< nvm. dont complain b4 trying. gambatte!! =)

complain lesser, appreciate more, that’s the key of hapiness. =)

雨过天晴

(:

haizzzz. how? i emo d lo. i hate being alone at home. i hate the empty home. i hate having noone to joke around coz i would be negative ezly. i have done NOTHING in this holiday. tmr one whole day is gonna be wasted. sat sun. two days for phy. I HOPE. my mask? not done yet. stupid plaster of paris. no paster of paris no mask. my journal? i noe it wont get high marks unless i wanna redo the whole thing. but no progress yet since mask is not done yet. other artworks? needless to say. maths oso hvnt finished. how how how? i m dead. i wan a REAL holiday. not a hol with whole bunch of homeworks and assignments!!!!! its not even a holiday!!!! its a homework week. in fact this is the second homework week!!!!!!!!!! ARGH.

frustrated. i am. failure.

i will probably get lost tmr.

burn the laptop. shall i? then i will be bored to death, lonely to hell. AHHH. this is not my home. :’(

how i wish

how i wish how i wish

how i wish i wake up and find out that the pencils are all sharpened overnite,

how i wish u can be by my side so that i wont get lost,

how i wish u r aware of the small things that i did to catch ur attention,

how i wish u do things like that to catch my attention,

how i wish u r a reader who often responds to me,

how i wish u have a laptop and will pei me more online,

how i wish i m your course mate,

how i wish u walk thru the obstacles with me not just giving rational advices,

how i wish u r not so rational sometimes and would do silly things like i am your whole world despite how people see,

how i wish u would steal me like iljimae,

how i wish u care who is iljimae, wat is he n how is he,

how i wish u would care to think of other altenative like skype when i say i wanna talk to you face to face,

how i wish u tell me more,

how i wish u r with me when i need u,

how i wish u r here with me rite now.

i dun wan just a goodnite wisher.

when i am frustrated and u r not there, music never forsakes me.

music is the most loyal mate, it listens, it heals, it occupies me, keeping the negative thoughts as far as possible from me.

how i wish i m not greedy.

sorry.

new

NEW!!!

time for a change. guess its better now. at least the font size is bigger =)

still a bit dark. coz my letters in previous posts were all bright colours. they would be vague if i put a lighter coloured skin.

no name for my blog tho. always stucked up with the name. so i decided to leave it blank till i get the inspiration for a right name

inspire me. anyone? XD